These past few weeks, I have been so busy that I fail to pay attention to my emotions. I was awash by waves of anger, disappointment and sadness but I chose to leave an impression of indifference. I pretended as though I didn’t really care.
Unfortunately, bottling up my emotions did more harm than good. Although my intention was to pretend that I was OK, I was actually not!
I just felt like it was the right thing to do to prevent arguments or worse, a shouting match. I was putting a pressure on myself and wore a facade to hide my emotions. I knew that I was only making a fool of myself.
I was holding on to a strange belief that keeping emotions to myself will make me feel better. Again, I was wrong.